That's a good idea, Pink Leopard. Our minds are temporarily "sick" (for lack of a better word). I'm trying to think of this ordeal more and more as a temporary illness lately. It's like when you have the flu and you feel like you're never going to get better and you forget what you felt like pre-flu. But, like the flu, you eventually get back to your normal self. And until then, we can't take our brain too seriously. It is literally misfiring and sending us false information. Sometimes reminding myself of all of this during my bad days provides me a momentary sense of relief. The relief may only last a second but it's something I can hold onto to ride out the setback. Down periods are so hard. The thoughts consume me during them. It's like my mind literally rejects almost everything about my boyfriend during them. They're so hard to get through because they feel so real and permanent. But sure enough, the setback ends every time and the good days start again. Now I'm in one of my good periods. During those periods it's easier to see that this is OCD/anxiety and it's also easy to see how much progress I have made in recovering over the months. I am slowly but surely getting better despite the bi-monthly setbacks. I have to remember that.