Hi everyone... I'm so lost and depressed, and I hope the wonderful men and women of this forum could help me or guide me. I could sure use guidance. I went on depo provera last June and it made me crazy so I went off it in February. It's now totally out of my system (thank God) but I have gained a whopping 50 pounds since I started it. I can't prove that all that weight is due to depo, probably some of it was stress weight as my life had many hardships this last years. However, I saw I was gaining weight and went on a diet (this was back in August or September, 2011) and I got a personal trainer to work with twice a week, did spinning class twice a week, was working out 5-6 times a week for 1-2 hours a day. I was dieting, did Atkins for awhile...lost a little, gained it back... I've tried diet pills, nothing worked. I went to my doctor, told her everything. She didn't believe me. I could tell. That was incredible frustrating. My personal trainer didn't believe me either, thought I was sitting around eating junk food, and I kept GAINING AND GAINING over the course of these months til now. Nothing I do seems to work, the scale won't budge... I try so hard and nothing comes of it. When I try for awhile and get nothing, I get so depressed that I crash off of my diet/exercise for awhile and eat some junk food, regular carbs...but not a gross amount, just a bit, like a normal person eating. Here goes... I am 5'10" and 250lbs. I don't look morbidly obese, esp since I'm tall. But I hate how I look and I was never this heavy. I'd love to be 160lbs, but I look great at 180lbs too. It just seems like such an impossible feat, and NO ONE seems to believe how hard I'm trying. I'm really depressed about it. I feel so self-conscious and like people are always judging me (and sometimes they are). My sister eats whatever and doesn't exercise and it beautiful and trim. I'm so jealous. I feel like life has to be more than this. I just don't know what to do. I hate that no one seems to understand why I'm so upset or have any real advise. I'm willing to do or try anything under the sun (feels like I already have) if it could work. I mean, even my own doctor won't believe me! I'm only 24, never had any kids...what will life be like after I have children? Am I destined to be 300lbs someday??? I'm just so depress. Please, someone help me.