i found out i had fibroid at 3cm 3 years ago. the doctor told me to leave it as it is unless there were changes in my periods. 4 months ago it grew to 10cm and my tummy was round. the doctor thought i was 3 months pregnant. less than a month ago i had it removed, along with my womb as it can't be saved. i am 25, never married, never had kids and now unable to have kids. everything was normal until recently i started to feel sad. i cry at times thinking about the future i always imagined which now will never come. i got engaged last year and he was by my side during the surgery and he's still with me. we kept this information a secret even from his family. i am afraid what they might think of me and how they would react. is that selfish of me? i want to have kids of my own. i kept the ovaries and the doctor told me to consider surrogacy but it's costly. and the amount of time and patience needed for this, i'm not sure if we can stand. i see children everywhere. i see pregnant moms almost all the time. i am jealous and angry. i want to be a mother too. i want to feel and have the glow. now, many friends and family members are expecting a wedding but my partner and me are just lost after the surgery. we don't know how to cope and we never talked about it. everything is like before the surgery. but i am in pain and i have no one to talked to.