Hi Rose18! Welcome, I wanted to tell you to come over to The Effects of Stopping Birth Control (Part 3) as this board isn't as active anymore. We have ALL been through what you are going through, and I promise you, it's NOT YOU, it's the pill...it has depleted the serotonin in your brain and the ocd thoughts is a result of it. Also, when I felt my worse, I went through all of the old Feelings toward BF/DH threads and it really made me feel better. There are 7 threads on this subject! Just lets you know how much it effects us all, and to assure you that it's 100% the pill.