Hi everyone, I am new here. I actually stumbled onto this site because I've been searching the internet for answers. Before I start, here's a little background: I am 22, soon to be married, and generally healthy and happy. I have had (at this point in my life which consists of the past couple of years) no reason to be depressed. Also, my fiance and I lead a very healthy, active, daring sex life. Sex is one of the best parts of our relationship. Here Goes: This past Monday I went to the obgyn to have an iud inserted. I had done tons of research via internet, pamphlets, and interrogating my friends and relatives about their experience. I'd already tried other forms of birth control and they weren't for me. Finally I decided to give it a shot. I settled with my doctor (I have Keiser insurance, if that makes any difference.) that I would get the 5 year mirena iud. I went in like normal. There were two doctors there, both women and both very friendly. I didn't feel uncomfortable at all. The first hiccup was when they asked if I had taken midol or some sort of pain medication before coming in. I was confused and replied that I wasn't aware that I was supposed to. They both explained that the process could be painful, even more so because I have never given birth. They asked if I still wanted to go through with it. I said yes. Also, they gave me a papsmear before the beginning the process of inserting the iud (because they didn't have one on file or something, I had just switched insurance companies and doctors.) I've had papsmears before. I've been tested for stds before. Usually these things aren't enjoyable, but they never upset or stress me out in any way. They're like any other medical examination. Then they began to do the procedure by inserting the speculum, which was uncomfortable but normal. Then they used a clasp of some sort to open the cervix. It was painful. Very painful. But one of them tried to insert it but for some reason could not. She just kept trying to search for a way to insert it but couldn't. At this point the other doctor stopped her and took over. She did the same thing. She pushed it in and tried different things to get it to fit but it just wouldn't. All the while I'm feeling sharp pains up my spine. Finally she uses an ultrasound machine to see why. She then tells me I have a tilted uterus which is why it is so difficult. I don't know why, but I found this to be ridiculously funny in the moment. I burst into laughter, then apologized, and the laughed more. She asked me what I wanted to do. I said I just wanted to get it done. She began the process again trying to push down on my abdomen as she did it, and various other things. There was no way, we'd have to soften up my uterus by taking medication and also by doing the procedure while on my period. As I was getting dressed to leave, I noticed there was some of my blood from the procedure on the lid of a trash can. After all of that, I didn't even have it put in. I kind of just checked out and walked to my car. I don't know why, but as soon as I got into my car I burst into tears. My emotions were so heightened. I wasn't terribly angry or sad or in pain (just a little crampy) It wasn't as if I felt taken advantage of. They were explaining everything to me as they did it. I had control the whole time. They made it clear to me I could ask them to stop at any point. This happened on Monday. It has only really been two days, but since then I have no sex drive whatsoever. When I think about my vagina it just feels like void. I have never felt this way. I have never ever been around my fiance or even thought about him and not wanted sex (regardless of whether we had sex or not.) I've never thought about sex and then felt like, "I'd rather not." I'm not disgusted by sex, I don't feel sad or scared to have sex. I don't think it will cause me physical pain. I've talked to my fiance and he's being incredibly patient and sweet about it, there's no pressure. Ever since this procedure, I've just literally had no desire. What's wrong with me? Is this normal? Has anyone coped with this kind of thing? Am I just being ridiculous? I don't really know who I should talk to, I tried calling the kaiser hotline and they said they could refer me to a therapist or counselor or something but I don't know if what I feel is so extreme. Will this pass? I'm getting married in two months and I don't want this to ruin my honeymoon. I'm just hoping someone might give me some insight. I feel hopeless.